Living with depression

I recently watched a clip on what it's like to live with depression and parts of it were spot on. Now I understand that not everyones expirence with depression is the same but for me depression is the voice in the back of your mind saying just go back to sleep, it's not worth getting up, no one will understand what's going on. It makes life so difficult because it makes it seem like you are stuck, that life will never change and never get better. What's the point of getting up when life is just going to be that same as yesterday? One thing they didn't touch on in the video is that sometimes it isn't a quiet little voice in your head telling you to stay. Sometimes it is a screaming, yelling voice telling you how worthless you are. It tells you how no one loves you, points out all of your flaws, tells you that you will never be enough. It becomes that bully that tells you to just kill yourself because you are stupid or ugly or just generally not good enough. It reminds you of all the times that you have failed. It reminds you of all the other people who said the same to you. It reminds you of how people have left and it must have been because you weren't good enough for them to want to stay. The worst thing about depression is that it's not someone else who is telling you this, this is you. No matter what other people say to you or how much they tell you how great you are, your voice tells you that you arent. This is you. It tells you, "I know what you have done. No one could ever love you because you are such a failure." It comes to the point where you are afraid to be alone, afraid to be quiet because its in those moments that the voice starts up again. I find myself often becoming anxious when I am alone because I am afraid of myself. I can't trust myself to be alone and not self destruct. The worst thing about depression though is the fact that it never really goes away, it lives with you constantly. You never truly escape it, you can manage it but never get rid of it. It's always there in the back of your mind just waiting for the right moment to attack once again. This is not something that people can just snap out of, it requires time for people to actually be able to manage. Sometime the only thing you can do for a person who has depression is to just be there. Just hold them. Don't promise that it will be better, don't promise to never leave, don't just tell them how amazing that they are because when you are depressed it doesn't feel like it will ever get and better, you don't feel amazing. You don't need someone to tell you how to fix it. What you really need is for someone just to be there, to have something solid to hold onto while the battle rages on inside of your head. Someone to just remind them that people exist. Life when you are depressed is a constant stuggle no matter what it does to you. It makes it difficult to enjoy what you have around you. It's a constant haze. Depression sucks. So just remember this if you ever have a friend who struggles with it. Sometimes the only thing you can do is be there, so be there.