Greatest Fear

My greatest fear in life is looking back on my life when I am older and realizing that I didn't do anything that I wanted to do. That I spent my entire life on nothing. I have so many things that I want to do with my life, things I want see, things I want to do, and my greatest fear is that I wont ever actually do any of them; that I will spend my life just going in circles and never truly moving forward. So to combat this fear I have started to envision myself accomplishing my goals. I have started telling myself that I can and will do what I want. I work towards it, plan everything out like it actually going to happen, preparing for things that I don't have yet. Often depression makes everything seem impossible, that there is no chance for anything, no light at the end of the tunnel. Its as though my goals are just to far away to reach, I can see others making it but not me. So I've started trying to create my own paths. Some days it does seem impossible and other days I can see the end. I just have to remember to remind myself that if I truly want something I have to truly believe that it will actually happen.